Seems I'll live a while longer

Since moving to California, other than enjoying the beach, ocean, sun and the host of things to keep yourself busy, I feel like I've done nothing else but work and spend my time running to get blood work for an upcoming doctors visit.  Multiply that times 4 and it gets exhausting.

I have my internal medicine, specialist, nephrologist and a cardiologist.  Add sonograms and echo cardiograms to my monthly routines.  Needless to say, I'm done with doctors.  Being new to the area and with my doctor, he wanted to clear everything up, get opinions from others and make sure we had a plan before moving forward.  Hopefully, we've cleared most everything up and my life can get back to a sense of normalcy.

Overall, I'm healthy.  My counts are all great.  My cholesterol is the lowest it's been, although we've doubled my medication to get it even lower.  My triglycerides aren't great, but still, way lower than my average.  I'm taking steps to help lower this as well and hope to see the results in a month or so. 

Blood sugar looks perfect.  He says I'm keeping the diabetes under control.  I still miss my cupcakes.

My kidney functions are off, but holding steady.  I'm stage 4 chronic kidney disease which sounds awful, but nothing critical. My nephrologist doesn't need to see me often anymore and checks on me every 6 months.  I take that as a good sign. 

I still have a fatty liver, but hopefully making changes to correct this.  Time will tell.  Doctors don't seem to concerned as initially thought.

I had an echo cardio gram last week to see how my heart is functioning since heart surgery.  The results came back amazingly well.  I don't understand all the fancy terms he was reading off to me, but he said that my heart if functioning perfect with amazing results.  This made me happiest most of all and gave me the most anxiety until I heard the results.  I don't want to have to go through any sort of heart surgery again if I can help it.

He was taken back a bit when I told him I quit Xanax cold turkey.  He then remembered that he didn't explain to me how or when to start.  He gives me a gold star for going through that though.  He admits he should have discussed in detail with me on what to do.  I'm still feeling some of the results of quitting.  Mostly, I can't sleep and have this underlying mild anxiety that hasn't gone away.  I'm increasing another med to help with this and also going to take a mild sleeping pill to help my brain shut down so I can sleep longer then 5-6 hours a night. I feel like I'm constantly tired.

To top things off, I've lost 10 pounds.  I'm not crazy about it, but the doctor said it was helpful but I could gain it back if I like as long as I'm eating healthy in doing so.

I miss my loaded cheese fries from Snuffers.

To sum things up, my body is a mess, but I'm dealing with each thing as they come.  I can't sit around and stress about it.  I can only make changes to make things better.

I miss being 21 years old. 

Happy Anniversary punkin'

Three years ago on December 5th, my future husband and I headed to city hall to get our marriage license.  It took a total of only 4 minutes and we walked out with our license.  It was the beginning of something very special, that concluded in one of the most magical weddings and experiences I could have ever imagined.  Standing next to the man I love more than anything in this world and surrounded by our wonderful family and friends.

We started our journey 11 years ago. It was a complicated relationship in the beginning.  But the love we felt almost immediately has notlessened at all.  It was one of those love at first sight situations, where we didn't want it to end and we both knew there was no going back.  

I'm a very lucky man.

We used to talk about marriage some over the years, saying that it wasn't for us.  I honestly think that the political atmosphere and it not being legal, dampened our hopes, because when the state of California passed marriage equality, we decided that it was something we wanted to do.  Only a few months after our marriage, did the law of the land change and it was legal everywhere and would be legal back home in Texas.  

We were lucky enough to be given a Disneyland Fairy Tale Wedding at the place we love the most.  It's a weekend that I will never forget.  After months of meetings, phone calls and paperwork, our weekend finally came.  We were again lucky enough to be surrounded by so many family members and friends.  Around 80 people total, which is quite a lot for a destination wedding.  

I think getting to go to Disneyland probably helped. 

We had the best Disney Wedding planning team that made the entire experience leading up the wedding seamless.  The day of the wedding went so smooth, you really didn't have to do anything but show up at the right time.  Our photographer and videographer were the best.  They both captured our day perfectly. 

I always worry about my memory and losing the details of that amazing weekend.  I'm always going through photographs and watching our video over and over, so I don't lose anything.  Ever year that passes, I want to make sure that I'm not forgetting a thing.  

I relive the day as much as I can.

Happy Anniversary punkin'.